The first post I made on my last trip to Guatemala was about waiting. 26 days before my next trip to San Pedro La Laguna, I find myself waiting again. This time, I’m not waiting for someone else. This time I am waiting in anticipation.
Short Timer is a term usually reserved for someone who is resigning or retiring from a job. As their departure grows nearer, their productivity and focus declines. In my youth, I gave two weeks notice at a couple of jobs, only to be asked to leave before the two weeks was up, because I had become virtually useless. I have seen the same happen to other people. When I was traveling frequently for McGraw-Hill a few years ago, I was consumed during the last couple of weeks before a trip by the desire to leave right away. It wasn’t that I wanted to be away from my home or my family, but rather that I was so looking forward to the adventure that I wanted it to begin immediately.
Today I find my situation to be a combination of anticipation and productivity decline. This trip is the culmination of years of planning and preparation for a documentary project featuring the Mayan elders in the community where I have studied Spanish for the last decade.
I still have a lot of preparation for the project. I need to learn the ins and outs of my new camera. I need to learn the program I will use to design pages for the book I am making. I need to coordinate with the people I will be working with in Guatemala. I need to talk to my bank about how I can transfer money down there without paying exorbitant fees.
My short timer status is getting in the way of all of this. If I could leave right now, I would, even though I’m not prepared. Even though I still need to work for the next three weeks to pay the bills. I am ready to be there, making it happen.
So far, my procrastination hasn’t taken me to the point of urgency on any of the things I need to accomplish before the trip. It is, however, taking all of my dwindling will power to keep on track, so I will likely find myself scrambling for something at the end of the month.
Stay tuned for posts from Guatemala beginning in April.